you and i/about that hug

we crossed paths in a lifetime where people pass each other on parallel roads,
we stopped and looked and found each other.
you know my soul
you’ve kissed my soul.

remember the time when i told you i can’t love you the way you want, and then i broke your heart?
you took me back.
we held each other on the mattress on the floor at a friend’s house-
quiet. when everybody else sang and danced around us,
all the noise faded and we saw no one else. for what seemed like an eternity.
peace. warm clouds engulfed my troubled heart
and i rested.

we walked together in dark neighbourhoods,
where women peek out from open doorways – half naked, half hiding
hesitant.
we walked together
our hearts broke over the injustices of this world.

remember the time when we fell asleep on the sand under the blinking stars?
by the fire, the sound of the waves in the distance,
you took in my breath, i took in yours and someone covered us with a blanket-
that was the sweetest gesture i’ve ever known
joy enveloped me!
no one minded the fire burning out.

hasn’t it been almost a decade now? since we did all those things?
since we sat on the top steps of the football field at school
playing your guitar, in that crisp night in June?
when i got back to the girls’ dorm
i had to jump in through the window. it was well past curfew.
we had to bribe the night guards with melting bars of chocolate and a bottle of half-drank wine.

it’s been too long since i last saw you and my eyes well up with tears at the mere thought of you.

and so,
i linger on this hug,
a little bit more than i should,
a little bit more than appropriate to the untrained eye-
sharp splinters of wood start burning in me.

all i’m trying to say is,
i love you –
like i love no one else.

© Tsion B., 2015

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